Mother's Day

I know that this is technically my second Mother's Day...but it's so different.  Last year I was still newly pregnant and not even feeling my little baby move yet.  It didn't feel real.  I had no idea what to expect.  I did not feel yet like a mother. 

Then our little baby grew, he kicked, he squirmed, he poked....he filled my belly.  He was born.  It was intense, painful, wonderful and beautiful...I felt like a mother.  Holding my little baby was so surreal.  I cannot explain the overwhelming love and wonder in my Creator. 

Motherhood is different.   I feel as though I am doing what I was created to do, I love it!  It is hard, it is tiring, it is overwhelming at times.... but the holding, the cuddling, the nursing all give me a tingle of purpose.  This is what I'm supposed to be doing. 

With every day that passes my little baby grows and will continue to grow and challenge me in being his mother.  We will hopefully have more children...which will stretch me more as a mother.  But He who has brought me this far will sustain me.  He will give me strength.  He will guide and direct my paths.  And I'm not alone, I have a wonderful husband sharing this journey!  I am so thankful to first be a wife, then a mother. 

I know that I have such little experience in the "mom" department in the grand scheme of life.  This has given me such a new perspective and respect for my own mom.  My little Graham is still in arms.  He still loves to be held, for me to nurse him, for me to smile at him and always be near him.  The day will come when he wants "down".  He wants to run free...and with my approval.  While I look forward to seeing him grow up, I do not wish it too quickly!  God has, in His sovereignty, given Matt and me this little child of His for a time...and we are to raise him in the nurture of the Spirit.  We pray that we get to see him grow up serving his Lord and claim the Spirit for himself.  But not  yet....he is still my baby.

Thank you momma for your example of faith, for your love, for your little nudges as I grew up.  For your support as I entered into the "mom club".  I still seek your approval....as I'm sure I always will.  I know that the journey of motherhood is not easy, it is not quick.  And I am so blessed to have an example still before me. 

On this my second Mother's Day I am thankful.  But I also pray that I have many more of these....many more days to examine my heart.  May the path of my mothering be one full of faith and joy in my Savior! 

"Rejoice in the Lord always.

Again I will say, rejoice!

Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."

Phil. 4:4-7