confessions of a young mother: October 2012

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

October 2012

As I start this post - I realize how the blog accidentally took a long break...

This was a hard month for our family. It's not something I've kept a secret but neither is it easy to just bring up in conversation or I knew how to blog about.... We lost our third little baby this month. I was just 10 weeks along when we saw on the ultrasound that our baby had stopped developing. We had some warning signs that things weren't quite right - and I had been praying to be prepared - but it was still heart wrenching. We had already told the boys and some friends and family. Though such a sad time, we felt very surrounded, loved, and supported. My heart breaks for other mommas who have lost babies. No matter how early or later in pregnancy, a baby and family member was lost. We look forward to heaven to meet our sweet baby and rest in the knowledge that our heavenly Father had a reason for gathering him or her in His arms before we met.

We didn't really do a big birthday celebration for Graham because we had celebrated in September. But it is still so fun to look back and acknowledge the milestones and fun things about each year as the boys get older. Graham is just so grown up these days... He's not taking naps anymore but instead takes a rest time. Basically he has to stay in the playroom and play with his toys and watch a movie while J sleeps. (and I get some time alone!) I just love seeing him set up his toys and see what his little imagination creates for his alone time! It's also so sweet when he accidentally falls asleep despite his best efforts. We just love watching him grow up and realize more and more of his own little personality!

Both boys, but especially J, are SUPER into dress up. Boots (matching or not), a hat, and some sort of eye-wear are a must at all times. If you notice in the picture below how J is holding his hook... They love the movie Hook and this is how he recreates Captain Hook's hook with his ruffled sleeve. He holds the hook through his lovey. I just love their little imaginations!

These next two are from their friend Will's 4th Circus birthday party.

We took many many walks around our neighborhood. The boys were absolutely in love with the crunching leaves under their feet and how the wind swirled them in the streets.